La Musique

Monday, May 19, 2008

"Vera has a strong need for affection. She thrives on touching and being touched. Vera desires being told that she is loved, every day."

Haha. So true. I need to touch, and be touched. And usually it comes in the form of hugging, or kissing. Even holding or linking hands is nothing new, and I like to run up to people to cover their eyes. Even if they know it's me : )

It's silly I know. Even just resting my head on your shoulder makes me unbearably happy. Maybe it's how I can best feel love. Little children are the best, because they don't fight the love. I asked a hug from ZhenJie, and he came to sit beside me, sitting so very still, waiting for me to hug him. Ohhh the love.

There are those who will hug me exuberantly. Those who will hug back. There are those who will squirm, but not try to break free. And those who will keep a one metre radius from me. I guess I should not touch people if they don't like it, yes self-discipline. muhahahaa

Of course I make guys an exception. That is excluding guys six years and below, of course. I'm still trying to save my first kiss. Haha. Brother says I'm a hopeless romantic. How terrifying...

I guess it's my way of showing and feeling love. MGS further cultivated the habit, and thank goodness church people are always there for hug. There are honestly times when I feel withered inside from the lack of affection or touch. Like there's a gaping empty hole where forty-five point seven million elephants can pack themselves into.

Are babies not the same? They will reach out their tiny little palms to you, for some hug they are pining for. Or they rest their soft heads on your shoulder, in utter trust and tenderness.

I want a hug.

9:19 PM