La Musique

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

bye bye 2.4

Today I experienced a MIRACLE!
I actually passed my 2.4km!!! Haha! God is really very very gracious to me... I not only passed, but obtained a timing good enough for me to get a silver for napfa! On cloud 13 million...

Thank God for Jillian, who ran the last two rounds with me, and tricked me by telling me that my fifth round was my last round so I was forced to run! I think my heart just about stabbed itself when I realised my fifth round was not my last round...
Thank God for Nicholas Wong... who tried to 'drown' me after the run by pouring water on my face...
Thank God for others like Nicolette who supported me after I stupidly collapsed...
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After helping out with the strings syf (saw Joey & Claire & Yating!), my headache (from dehydration I think) got quite bad so I went home after meeting my pet. My pet is really very silly... it thinks it can walk from Bukit Panjang to my house... it gets very weird/crazy/funny/VERY SILLY ideas sometimes.
Not from me. :p

Going to reward myself with cute pics of kids last Sunday!


And then I realise I have quite a lot a lot a lot of things to do this weekend!!! And my stuff is clashing again on sunday lalala. Need to practice the score for JCC, prepare chords for band prac, settle photog accounts and shirt... blah blah blah. One by one. :)

9:53 PM

Monday, April 27, 2009

25th April 2009

It was a day of very, very precious and delightful memories.
Sparkling waters, sea spray, never-ending breeze, quiet prayer.
Piggy-backs, love stories, hearts broken, densities hahaha.
A night of mutual confusion, question & answer sessions.
Please, please, please mean what you say.
I really want to believe it!
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我是真心要相信你

11:53 PM

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

JILLIAN GOH totally killed me today.

When she collapsed outside the audi, my mind kind of blanked out. And then I began asking random people for plastic bags *NOT very useful* I think mars was much more rational... I could not help but think back on the New Year Day incident at the mrt. (I thought I had forgotten about it but some things just will never leave your memory) I could only let Jilly rest her head in my lap and squeeze my hand - exactly like childbirth. JILLIAN PLEASE DON'T BE SCARED BY THE PAIN I STILL WANT GODCHILDREN! (:

I started rambling quite uselessly about left-handed whoppers, my special birthing technique, Ernest eating silicon gel - I felt so, so, so helpless. Rather idiotically I kind of wished God could half the pain with me so it wasn't so bad. And so I tried to pray with her too. Jillian HOW can you get such BAD cramps I CANNOT comprehend!!!

Inspiration of the day: I will train to be a fantastic midwive-godmother!!! Maybe without the screaming and blood (what if i faint first -.-)... MIDWIVE TRAINING YAY!

I think I make deluded statements because I'm too idealistic. Though sometimes it's just plain stupid. Haha.

5:03 PM

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Puppeting!

Winnie asked me how my Good Friday was during PEG today... and I realised I haven't quite got the opportunity to gush about the kids at the puppet show to anyone yet!!! So I think I totally tortured her with my rapid, enthusiastic, overloading of how adorable the kids were and so on... Oops. : p

And now I'm going to overload it more on my blog. I think all the practices (noisy and tiring they were) we had for consecutive weeks was TOTALLY WORTH IT because children are the most innocent things in the world and the gospel was really meant for them! Initially I feared the Ragman script would be too deep for them because it was really quite obscure, and very different from the usual joking playful script we were used to. But thank God the response from the kids was great!!!

The funniest part was when the Ragman pretended to die (parallelling Jesus' death on the cross), and Cyrus (the narrator) was supposed to look away in grief, while the Ragman would sneak off (paralleling Resurrection of Christ), so that it seemed that the Ragman aka Jesus rose from the dead! But of course the kids could see the Ragman get up and walk away, so when Cyrus turned around and pretended to be surprised that the Ragman was gone, all the kids were screaming "He went that way! Behind the stage! That way!!!" And poor Cyrus had to ignore all of that and go on saying "He has risen from the dead!"
I nearly laughed into the mike!

And the most endearing thing is at the last part when Cyrus asked "So do you want to invite Jesus into your heart today?", the kids raised their hands so easily as though you had just asked them if they wanted to eat MacDonalds. Haha. I love kids!!! They can just so freely accept the truth about Jesus, and to them, their Saviour is like their friend to them!

Then little children were brought to Jesus for him to place his hands on them and pray for them. But the disciples rebuked those who brought them. Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
Matthew 19: 13-14

Jesus prayed for little children! How cool is that?!

8:44 PM

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

NOT a pedophile

I <3 mentoring club!!!

The kids are oh-so-heartachingly-cute-and-lovable! And it's really fun beceause Bena is lame-until-she-cannot-walk and Aileen is like preying on handsome boys! Haha! I mentored a boy named Ernest (how ironic) today! He and his partner Leonard are really naughty! I will have to make Ernest do his work, and then Leonad has this great habit of saying his answers out loud... and of course Ernest conveniently overhears! AND THEY SAY I AM SHORT?!?!?! (they are at an age where they are overexcited about girls and they think height is an indication of maturity WHICH it is NOT :p) My patience is being stretched like... er... a pancake! If you put maple syrup and butter on it you can probably eat it already! Hahaha!

Oh there's also this really quiet, adorable boy in specs (love nerds!) whose name is Wei Jian. His face is perpetually in a pout and we always try in vain to make him laugh or smile! We have formed a fan club in honour of his cuteness; I wonder if we scare him haha! I MISS THE BOY WHO LAUGHED LIKE A MACHINE GUN!!! I didn't see you today!!!

I think I could stay in that school for a long long long time. We were spying on the P1s and P2s who had came down for assembly... and their bags are far too huge for their teeny bodies! The boys are SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SO charming with their shorts pulled up high and they have the smallest faces ever that just wants to make you squeeze and cuddle their cheeks and rub noses with them and hold their tiny hands in your palms and sneak them into your bag so that you can run off home with them where you can hug them anytime you like! I am going to be very very very very very very very happy every Tuesday I think! I am SO going to be a primary school/kindergarten teacher! Imagine seeing the little darlings everyday... it would be pure bliss!!!

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Quote of the day:
"Women are so much better at making babies!" by Marissa. I totally agree! *hinthint*

9:13 PM

Monday, April 13, 2009

I passed my Grade 8 Piano Practical! Thank you thank you thank you dear God! Honestly I was quite doubtful of passing! I knew the results were out since last week already, but being the utter coward and avoiding idiot I am, I was too scared to log in to find out if I died or lived. Okay drama. Haha! When I saw my results online I refreshed the page several times to make sure that it was really true, and then I just stared agape at the screen before I started to jump around in glee! I still want to dance around when I think about it. (:

"May God bless you with much precision, knowledge, confidence and joy for your piano exam!
Trust Him and make a joyful sound unto Him... Hmmm :-)"
"Our God is so big, so strong and so mighty... There's nothing our God cannot do for you!!"

Now there's just Napfa this week to get over with. Hahaha will I faint or die? Sigh. I want a huggg please?

7:27 PM

Sunday, April 12, 2009




Love Crucified Arose / Christ Arose - Stan Whitmire

Long ago He blessed the earth
Born older than the years
And in the stall a cross He saw
Through the first of many tears
A life of homeless wandering
Cast out in sorrow's way
The Shepherd seeking for the lost
His life, the price He paid

Love crucified, arose
The Risen One in splendor
Jehovah's sole Defender
Has won the victory
Love crucified, arose
And the grave became a place of hope
For the heart that sin and sorrow broke
Is beating once again

Throughout Your life You felt the weight
Of what You'd come to give
To drink for us that crimson cup
So we might really live
At last the time to love and die
The dark appointed day
That one forsaken moment
When Your Father turned His face away

Love crucified, arose
The One who lived and died for me
Was Satan's nail-pierced casualty
Now He's breathing once again
Love crucified, arose
And the grave became a place of hope
For the heart that sin and sorrow broke
Is beating once again

I had forgotten how much I loved this song until Deborah reminded me today... no wonder when I heard the first notes of the introduction I felt the familiarity wash over me again, and it never fails to make me cry. I think I will never cease to be amazed by the love that held Jesus to the cross, and the awesome power of His resurrection through His triumph over death. I hope I never will.

7:17 PM

do re mi

How do composers treat melodies?

Are they inspired before breathing life into their creation? Or do they simply pluck it out of the silence, like Mozart. Do they join notes like how constellations form? Or do they draw pictures in the mind - spirals, crevices, soaring peaks, mists? Maybe they sew harmonies together to form a tapestry so complex, so intricate, every piece is unique. Is it like cooking? Where certain flavours complement each other, yet still others drown and distort. Music is almost like dancing. A slow, unhurried waltz. A graceful pirouette. Contortioning of the body. I think music is like a hug. It envelops you, warms and touches your heart in ways indescribeable, and its fleeting moment lingers even after it is no longer there.

12:01 AM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

G R A T E F U L !

And in more ways than one! Good Friday is supposedly over already... but I was thankful for it - for the puppeting, the fellowship, the visiting grave... and now I will mull over my Saviour's sacrifice while anticipating his triumph over death and glorious ascendance to heaven!

Feeling grateful is wonderful. It reminds me that nothing belongs to me, I have earned nothing by my own merit, and that I rest wholly in my Father's hands.

Thank you...
I will guard your heart...

12:34 AM

Friday, April 10, 2009

enough

Avoidance is good. I think that on nights like these I wish I couldn't think. I wish I wouldn't think so much. Am I reading too much? Why does it anger or sadden me? I'm so annoyed and frustrated at my inability to do, say anything. And then I still remain at an utter loss as to what to do. Again and again. It would just be better to really let it go once and for all. I'm tired of it. WHY keep something near me that will only hurt me time after time?

I won't dwell on it. There are plenty of other things that still drain my energy and willpower. Some things I won't think about. Some things I refuse to cry about, but I know I need to. Sigh. Trust in Christ, Vera. Only God keeps His promises.

I did Campus E with Danette today. How do I describe it? There were times when I felt so hopeless in sharing the gospel, and I wished I could just open my heart to them so that they could see for themselves how much I meant every word I uttered. It was simply inconceivable to me that they could not see the truth for themselves. Or was I the blind one? I feel so blessed to be a child of God, yet so saddened to see others not yet in the family. Yet it is up to God to change hearts and transform lives. We are merely instruments of his will.

Good Friday tomorrow. Puppet show tomorrow. The speaker at the Good Friday service was right. I'm dreadfully longing for my true home. Not just tired of my earthly burdens, but I'm yearning for the day when my Saviour will take me into his arms and welcome me to my eternal home.

This is such a sad post. But I guess I'm sad now.

12:28 AM

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

*bbbats* .hgiS !esaelp em sllik ti erofeb em lliK !keew siht tuo era stluser wp dna stluser onaip yM

11:24 PM

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Miss Vera Chng,

Please don't be so simple-minded and insensitive like you usually are. You hurt people without realising it. Learn to slow down and think. Ahhhh....

1:24 AM

Thursday, April 2, 2009

embracing insanity

Samantha and I were debating on our dream guy...
And I decided if I had to marry someone (who was not a child)...
It would be Kenshin Himura!!! *insane laughter*
I LOVE KENSHIN!!!

Seriously! Who could resist him?!

This is the epitome of cuteness...oro! He is utterly adorable when things get awkward. And he has silky long red hair and can fly, or jump extremely high. And he is a perfect gentlemen, a character I admired immensely. I was infatuated with him for a good part of my childhood... I miss anime. It was a world of fantasy that I escaped to periodically.

Note: I still owe Pastor Ronnie his Samurai X cds. Haha.

10:55 PM


I feel like I'm living in two different worlds.
Is this what we mean by strangers of the world?
Love with the same heart, Vera
Only then can you testify to God's love.

8:36 PM


I remember singing this for Psalty's concert... crying as I sang it.

12:35 AM

Wednesday, April 1, 2009


Walked in the rain today :)
Didn't get very wet though.
Shall try again!

10:20 PM