... hear a baby laugh ... am told that someone loves/misses me :) ... am hugged!!! ... hold a small child in my arms (and steal their first kiss!) ... hear an exerpt from Chopin's Nocturne in C# minor ... read a sweet note someone writes to me ... when I look at my baby photos and laugh at how i still cannot smile properly ... realize the breaking dawn is coming out in less than a week! ... see people who don't normally tag on my blog ask about me (thank u) ... do my qt and remember that God is watching over me everywhen everywhere : )) ... am promised that I can be the godmother of someone's child!!! ... think of all the future godchildren I am going to have!!! ... see a baby sneeze into her mother's face hahaa ... manage to manipulate Cyrus into buying Eoin Colfer's latest book so I can read it ... am half-asleep and I see my mom/dad sneak into the room to switch off the light ... take pictures with Ernest when he is sleeping ... see the books arrayed on my shelf, which is the only neat area in my room ... wear my LoveMG shirt ... tell someone I need a hug and they hug me : )) ... see the maple leaves on my cupboard and remember vancouver and tim ... find out that tangent curves aren't impossible after all ... open my bible and see all the early bird stickers I collected as a child ... am fed chocolate by someone XD ... serve God by playing the piano, doing puppeting, anything!! ... hear the voices of children lifted up to God in praise ... play ''Look at the World" on the piano (thanks teacher) ... sing ''Testify to love'' ... pray for someone and find my prayers answered! ... remember that God is love ... and that the people around me are a manifestation of His love for me ... realize that my fingers and toes aren't enough to number all the people I love ... can tell someone I love just how big a place they hold in my heart! ... remember to thank God for EVERYTHING
before I lose it.
7:22 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
I cannot remember the last time I was struck by a sudden bout of hiccuping. Must have been years ago. Yet this sudden ailment abruptly chose to erm, ail me, right after I reached home yesterday. From the moment I got off the bus, all the way up the hill, and even after I reached home. It went something like...
*hiccup* *yip*
So first I would get that silly jerk in my system, then it would express itself as a high-pitched, loud, yipping sound not unlike that of a dog. It came every five seconds or so, and alarmed everyone within the vicinity. THank goodness it didn't come earlier, if not I'll be yipping my way as I strode on stage to receive my (dummy) certificate.
The lady walking in front of my the whole way turned back to face me with an amused expression and said "Hiccuping?" As though I didn't know already. Haha. She then proceeded to instruct me on several ways to stop the hiccuping, one of which included punching myself in the stomach. A little boy I passed nearly jumped three feet into the air as I unavoidably let out the yipping noise. It was really cute though. :)
I want to go to a classical concert soon! CRAP. I miss the MEP concerts!!! And I can read all the upcoming or past concerts in LIFE and bemoan my lack of money and time to attend them! JEREMY MONTEIRO. I've never heard him! I missed piano fest for the past eon-years. And there is absolutely NO ONE who will go with me to such a concert!!! WHYYYYY
Maybe I'll work as a door security guard at the esplanade so I can lock people out when they are late and scoff at them while I enjoy the music inside shamelessly. RANT. Yes. Then I shall grudgingly let them into the circle during the interval with a smirk like "haha you poor thing you missed the first half of the concert because you lingered over dinner too long!" MUHAHHAHAHAAA
12:19 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
'Little' thoughts on Love
"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind ...
Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch." Natalie, age 9 "I'm not rushing into being in love. I'm finding fourth grade hard enough." Regina, age 10
"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something,
but the rest of it isn't supposed to be so painful." Manuel, age 8
"Love is the most important thing in the world, but baseball is pretty good too." Greg, age 8
"Love will find you, even if you are trying to hide from it.
I been trying to hind from it since I was five, but the girls keep finding me."
Dave, Age 8
"Once I'm done with kindergarten, I'm going to find me a wife."
Tom, Age 5
9:44 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
I think I'm becoming unfaithful again. Oh dear haha
11:09 PM
Monday, July 14, 2008
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the Lord.
Jeremiah 29: 11-14
There is hope in every prayer, Hope is frail, but hard to kill.
4:12 PM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
"I'll be missing you in heaven."
This was inspired just a few minutes ago. The three words "I miss you" seem to me, so much more intricately powerful, more convincing than "I love you" When someone misses you, it's pleasantly obvious that they love you so much, that they would miss your presence. It's like...
"I MIloveSS YOU"
Okay. I didn't quite mean it so literally. :) But it's chaaarming. It never fails to bring a small, delightedly surprised smile to my face, to know someone misses me. Even in heaven, I'm sure the love and relationships forged in earth will not be forgotten, or thrown away, even as we worship and praise wholeheartedly our almighty Father. Because God is love. And we love because He first loved us.
I miss you.
12:41 AM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Guess what Vera was doing instead of working on Issues & Ideas or ILP Presentation?
Vera was reflecting on her purity vow! How extremely relevant and helpful! Haha. The first kiss at altar thing yes. No, I am not regretting it, nor am I planning to revoke it anytime soon. What with all the crude talk about sex and fantasies that have been whizzing past me over me through me.
I think kissing (the lip to lip one) is disgusting. Haha. It's like taking a bite out of a donut, licking and smearing it all over your face, then handing it over to the next person to eat, with your saliva and sweat and goodness knows what else. Bad and irrelevant analogy I know. Okay, make that a sexy organic donut. Help any?
Only babies are nice to kiss. I dont mind kissing them on the lips either, just that it might be unfair to them if they lose their first kiss before they can even utter "mama" or "papa" I don't think I've met anyone who make me want to kiss them. How utterly tragic. A catastrophe! I'm getting cynical. Or more cynical. If that's even remotely possible.
The word "charming" is now my favourite word. It's just so, incredibly, charming. Hahaa. Again, my intelligence amazes me beyond words! Some feelings just can't be put into words. And I hate the maiden's prayer. I mean, I really enjoy playing octaves in triplets with hands that can barely reach across 12 semitones! And I absolutely LOVE squeezing nine, ten notes in split seconds! And jumping fron one range to another, I think my hands are learning the art of teleportation! And it is SO ENCOURAGING to see myself stumble at every bar of a song that is supposed to be for grade six people. Whoever composed it was ostracizing people with small hands!!!! Curses!
Well, I think of the most stupid stuff at night.
10:35 PM
Did you ever talk to God above? Tell Him that you need a friend to love.
1:29 AM
Monday, July 7, 2008
The point of EOM is to make my source seem credible and oh-so-reliable.
However, reasons why I DO NOT think it is reliable
1. The author is vulgar. He uses the four letter "f" word in his write-up. 2. When asked for references, he directs people to the search engines. 3. He takes a childish delight in calling renowned professors and psychologists names. 4. There is no scientific backing whatsoever for his theories. They are all made up in his head and in fact, some of them even contradict scientific records. 5. He tells the read not to skip his footnotes, and then includes things like "lol" in them 6. The paper is about criticising experts on autism. Ironically enough, the author is autistic!
Hopefully Miss Huo doesn't read this. An exerpt from my EOM, which has thankfully left out the harsher and more vehement points of the author:
"While it is evident from his strong language and vehement tone that he bears much anger and frustration towards psychologists, he admits in his paper that it is “a highly personal account”, and that it is this same strong resolve that has given him the “determination and motivation” for this paper. His fervent and heated manner may be interpreted as biasness, but in not holding back his true feelings or trying to remain on the fence, it is undeniably honesty on the author’s part, and this honesty adds to the source’s authenticity."
All crap. CRAP.
11:54 PM
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Recipe for Yummy Cookies
Ingredients - 1/3 cups of patience - 2 tablespoons of sincerity - a dash of joy - 4 pounds of kindness - 365 gallons of love
Instructions - Place all ingredients in the bowl of Christian fellowship - Mix well with the everlasting faithfulness of our Father - Bake in the oven of God's wings forever
Note: Do use a heart-shaped mold made of trust if you have one. : )