Sunday, November 30, 2008
I got rejected :( And only kids are allowed to do that really.Imagine fretting and worrying over the idea of someone sticking needles (big or small) into me, then being perpetually reminded by the countless posters in church and announcements made. And SOME PEOPLE ahemberniceahem who attempt to demo on me during service. Then finally mustering the courage to really decide to do it, because I really do want to.
And then I get rejected. Actually 3 times.
1. The doctor flatly refused to let me donate seeing I was hyperventilating. (which I was not!)
2. My iron level was too low. I missed the standard of 12.5 by 0.1 decimal!
3. The lady decided to try to find my vein for fun, and checked both my arms, concluding it was too small and that I should work my arms more so that next year I have a greater chance of donating. Uncle Keming suggested housework. -.-
Sigh. Actually I really did want to donate, despite probably being scared to death. Deborah got rejected too, but she yiling yien were really nice to accompany me and encourage me. And while Hannah has a phobia of needles and Liqun was sick, they also tried to help me calm down and feel better. Lynn totally helped by telling me only the needle containing the anesthetic is painful. Haha. Thanks anyway.
I'll try again next year.
9:11 PM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Previously, I've always thought that I get headaches because I bathe at night, and don't try my hair properly, and then the water seeps into my brain. My mom would scare me by telling me that my brain will absorb the water and my nerves will get flooded. I have no idea how or why I believed that, until someone pointedly pointed out that it was unlikely ANYTHING could get through my thick skull. Just something interesting from my childhood. Haha.What am I doing now? Instead of starting on my history term paper which is due in less than two weeks, I am still compiling material for camp booklet and cursing microsoft word for its lack of margins such that I have to squint at my computer screen to see if the pages are same size. Oh yes, and fretting about the number of facilitators I have for each group which Pastor Kien Seng keeps adding to!!! And there's the skit for yz and puppet script which are not written yet, and BLOOD DONATION THIS SUNDAY! And for someone who is scared of needles, pain, blood...
I'm kinda lazy to update what's been happening... genting, outings, meetings, band practices (HAHA). Oh and I returned from genting only to realise 08A13 is going genting in january! my reaction was like YAY/OHNO! I love genting!!! XD
Oh and for camp band prac, sheesh, I totally forgot to book the room thinking that Sunday was like an all free day and ended getting chased out by Uncle Chee. So we hitched a ride to Wilson's house. AND WILSON CAN'T DRIVE FOR NUTS. He drove over a curb, and THROUGH THE LIFT LOBBY, and brushed it off as perfectly natural. At least he helped me find my handphone. :) Okay I owe you some treat haha.
I left that night feeling extremely inadequate about my piano playing skills, probably because I haven't had much experience in playing in a band so I can usually ignore my usual stumbles and syncopation tendencies. Thanks to WX and Samuel who I always end up whining to haha. So sorry. But well, I'm left more determined than ever to train myself to play my best for God! But I still got a shock realising the unfamiliarity of Deborah's songs! Haha. I suppose this is one of the winds to my flame.
"I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born."
Isaiah 44:2a
9:46 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
Love:Say it only when you mean it, and when you do, say it alot, because people forget.
Perhaps out of all the blessings I have received, one of which I am most grateful for are friends, family, mentors, siblings, loved ones. I am constantly encouraged and cared for by them. Hooray for God's creation! Thank you and love you!
2:43 PM
Friday, November 14, 2008
God rocks!
The Pei Hwa Orientation thing, aka One ROCKS was fun! The first day was kinda awkward because I didn't know the girls too well, but after bonding with them, it was really fun to cheer them on and play with them :) I've forgotten what it's like to be P6. And thank God for the chance to share the gospel with them! I'm not expecting big changes, but I'll trust God to touch and move hearts in His own time and way.Oh oh! And I saw a side of SongKang that I really liked!!! Usually he's all teasing and mean and horrible, but I had an opportunity to pray with him, and he revealed a side that really shows he's serious about God! I guess God does change people in amazing ways. It was really encouraging to see him like that. I must strive to be more serious too!
This is Phoebe, Elyse and Jia Min! Elyse borrowed my Eclipse and has yet to return it!!! Phoebe is really cute!
Sara, Eunice, Yi Lin and Miao Xin! Do not even comment that they are the same height as me... Height is not an indication of maturity... I must remember to sms them about their PSLE results! I think I've spent the past three days doing something really meaningful. So hopefully I'll continue to use my holidays as wisely as possible! So many things are coming up! Please let me have good time management! And may God always use me as an instrument of His will!
Oh and MADAGASCAR 2 REALLY ROCKS!!! omg I love the penguins. I watched with Sophia and Yuen after our Sakae buffet and it was totally worth it!!! It's like... Kungfu Panda all over again!!! Deborah now that you're free go watch!!! After the puzzle! :)
10:23 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children and live a life ofHence let me never take Christ's sacrifice for granted, but remember the overwhelming love and mercy God has for me, love that is deeper than any ocean, immeasurable and unconditional, love I do not deserve. And while I can never hope to match up to His kind of amazing love, let me at least testify to His love in my life by loving and caring for the people around me!
love, just as Christ loved us and gave Himself up for us as a fragrant offering
and sacrifice to God."
Ephesians 5: 1-2
9:12 PM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
I think I play my darling best when we're alone. I get jittery in the presence of people, but of course who doesnt, and I feel the conscious, or not so unconscious attention rivetted on the strains of melody I coax from him. I can close my eyes alone with him. Ignore the mistakes, the stumbling, what syncopation tendencies, a severe dissonant. I can soar, drift, let my imagination take flight on the ivory keys. Dolce, doloroso, cantabile, begone! Let Vera take control! Laugh, giggle when I unwittingly produce an odd ditty out of nowhere. Or wince. Of course I'm not thinking Chopin or Mussorgsky. Oh why do I even mention it? Playing not to please anyone, but most genuinely and gloriously for God.A EFE EFE EBAD DDCABAG# ACDE
AE EFE EFE EBCED DDEFEAC BAG#DCG#A
11:12 PM
Will you swap your tiramisu for my cupcake?It's cuter, sweeter
You don't have to worry
About sophistication
What finesse
No need to berate yourself
Over inadequacies
Look at it!
It's cute!
More appealing
Less distant
Less complex
Less unreachable
10:27 PM
An interesting conversation with Ernest.Both of us were heading downstairs to play badminton.
In the lift...
Ernest: *pointing at my shorts* Why do girls like to wear such short shorts?
Me: *mentally preparing myself to accept the urgings of puberty within my yet immature brother* Why do you ask? Are my shorts that short? -.-
Ernest: Oh at the camp all the girls wear shorts like that at night.
Me: Oh, how interesting, so what do you think? *tactfully trying to avoid plunging into a guy territory but still unable to resist finding out if my brother has finally set a toenail across the line of maturity. I was preparing myself not to wince if his answer had something to do with girls' legs.*
Ernest: *rather nonchalantly* They not scared mosquito bite at night meh?
8:31 PM
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Dreams are terribly interesting things. That is well, if you remember them. Bleary-eyed, one tries to recall the happenings of the night before, catching only brief glimpses of memory works as one allows. Recalling the person involved is no problem, neither is tasting the essence of the dream difficult. I have dreamt of many people, in many situations. Often not what one would expect them to be in. Classmates, friends, buddies, family. Now where would you be under? Sometimes good and pleasant dreams make me wish I was still sleeping, and there is a tinge of regret in that morning of wakefulness. Nightmares however, leave me only silent screams, tear-stained pillows and sudden jolts in bed. Probably if I have spent time with you recently, I would dream of you a few days later. And probably depending on how I feel towards you, do I hate you or love you or admire you? My dream would take that essence. I wish I could pen down all the dreams I have, but it would not do justice to the feelings that fortunately, or unfortunately, accompany them. How terrifying.8:04 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
I hate buying books. Never thought I'll say that haha. It's stupid. I spend thirty dollars on a book, and finish it in a few hours. Why can't I stretch out the period of ecstasy over a few days, so my desire is more fully satisfied! And yeah Julian, I don't care if that sounds wrong -.-Noelyn is really funny. I was having lunch with her and Yiling at HK Cafe and apparently she wanted to order ice water but she didn't see it on the menu. So she asked for warm water, then asked the waitress to add ice to it! Brilliant!
And Liqun's hair smells really good! Hannah should hug her and smell it too! Hahaha. And Bernice just realised we use wine for communion. Really fast Bernice! XD It doesn't matter anyway since its symbolic. I don't really take to the taste of the wine though. Except ice wine. But then again, who doesnt? You and ellie should try serving in the children's choir!!! They are so cute!
SIghs. This week has been mostly ups, and some downs. It's awful when you go really high, and you go really down. Only God keeps His promises. Remember that. :)