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Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Dear Father,

I'm really scared. You probably know how much more scared I am than I dare to let on. I think it's the fear of uncertainty, of challenges, of trials of faith that I know will definitely meet me this year. I'm frightened of As. I'm terrified of my grade 8 piano practical and theory exam. I'm hesitant about my ability to guide four young lives to Your purpose. I doubt my skill as a pianist for you. I'm apprehensive about the time I can devote to support singing, children's choir, kindergarten and puppeting. I am so so anxious about leading the PEG group in Hwachong. I really wish I was a better testimony to Your love and grace in my life to my classmates in 08A13. Dear God, I really am so silly.

So silly to forget that You promised that You would never leave me or forsake me.
That You told me not to be afraid, and I still am.
That You are my Shepherd, but I am a stubborn sheep.
That the harvest is plentiful, but I'm not a courageous worker.
That I am to put my hope in You, yet I still feel so hopeless at times.
That I can cast all my anxiety on You because You care for me, but I still shoulder my burdens.
That Jesus has already ran the race and won it for me, but I'm worried about my lack of stamina.
That You have not given me a spirit of fear, but of power & of love & of a sound mind.
That I try to lean on my own understanding when You told me to trust in You with all my heart.
That You are my refuge and strength, an ever present help in trouble.
That even as I grow tired and weary, and stumble and fall,
I am to put my hope in You and my strength is renewed.
That You are love, and sometimes I do not love enough.

I thank You that I am a child of Yours, and that I can go to You any time, and that You are always with me. Thank You also for the people you have put beside me, around me, encouraging me, teaching me, loving me. Thank You for all Your promises, because only You can keep them. Thank You for giving me trials, it is an honour to go through them and be weary for You! Thank You for putting me in a non-Christian environment, that I have so many opportunities to share about Your word. Thank You for You Lord,
the AWESOME ALMIGHTY God,
who oddly enough,
loves me.
:)

In Jesus' most precious name I pray,
Amen

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