La Musique

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

uncomfortable thoughts

I was just pondering over it last night.

How important the grade8 practical exam this friday is for me. If I pass it, it would quite mean the end of my professional piano studies. I might miss it, in a warped kind of way, because I know I don't plan to take diploma.

If I fail it, it would mean...I would have to learn the whole new syllabus, because the registration date for the exam later this year is past already, so I can't just retake the exam in August. And learning the whole new syllabus would take me another year, and I'll probably have to spend another (12 x $260) + $300plus, on my piano lesson and exam fees. I don't think I would want to prolong my parents' financial burden another year or so. And with As coming up... I don't want to think...

Which is why I must pass. Vera, you will. You haven't failed any yet. But there's a first time for everything. And you know how easily you slip into panic mode in these sort of situations. I won't. I will not. I simply cannot afford to. Dear God, please let me pass.

9:55 AM