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Wednesday, March 11, 2009

[X]General Paper
[X]Economics
[X]Literature
[X]Piano Grade 8 Theory Exam
[X]Youth Sunday Band Practice
[X]Youth Sunday (i really need to practice!)

Dear God, please let me survive this week.
PANIC ATTACKS EVERY DAY OF THE WEEK.
Every morning and night I am overwhelmed by a sense of dread.
It's mentally and spiritually draining! I want to hug someone!
Thank you Serene and Brother :)

I can't control my feelings. Can't. Can't. Can't. Can't. Can't. Can't. Can't. Maybe I'll wait for the day I become so jaded and tired of love, or the lack of it, that I will just mutilate and destroy my ability to. Then maybe FINALLY things will make so much more sense in this stupid tangled twisted warped world of emotions and feelings. imagine a world not dictated by our relationships. how wondrous. how lovely. how unimaginable. but oh how unreachable. dear God, i really am insane. was i made this way or was it __? Feelings shoudn't have a voice. They should be mute and stuffed deep down under my soul where they pose only a slight discomfort, but have no way to take over the world. My world. Okay not mine. God's. : /

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