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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

JILLIAN GOH totally killed me today.

When she collapsed outside the audi, my mind kind of blanked out. And then I began asking random people for plastic bags *NOT very useful* I think mars was much more rational... I could not help but think back on the New Year Day incident at the mrt. (I thought I had forgotten about it but some things just will never leave your memory) I could only let Jilly rest her head in my lap and squeeze my hand - exactly like childbirth. JILLIAN PLEASE DON'T BE SCARED BY THE PAIN I STILL WANT GODCHILDREN! (:

I started rambling quite uselessly about left-handed whoppers, my special birthing technique, Ernest eating silicon gel - I felt so, so, so helpless. Rather idiotically I kind of wished God could half the pain with me so it wasn't so bad. And so I tried to pray with her too. Jillian HOW can you get such BAD cramps I CANNOT comprehend!!!

Inspiration of the day: I will train to be a fantastic midwive-godmother!!! Maybe without the screaming and blood (what if i faint first -.-)... MIDWIVE TRAINING YAY!

I think I make deluded statements because I'm too idealistic. Though sometimes it's just plain stupid. Haha.

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