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Friday, July 24, 2009

being blind

When they say faith is blind.
They forget how much more of the world blind people feel.

1:15 AM

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

"It made sense for a lot of reasons because in all of Baby's life, as well as Sethe's own, men and women were moved around like checkers. Anybody Baby Suggs knew, let alone loved, who hadn't run off or been hanged, got rented out, loaned out, bought up, brought back, stored up, mortaged, won, stolen or seized. So Baby's eight children had six fathers. What she called the nastiness of life was the shock she received upon learning that nobody stopped playing checkers just because the pieces included her children."

~Beloved, by Toni Morrison

I was amazed at how moved I was by this sentence. Never having appreciated my literature texts before, this comes as a very pleasant surprise. Perhaps what makes it even more potent would be the fact that it was, and maybe still is, very real - to the sixty million and more. This kind of books make literature worth studying.

11:03 PM

Friday, July 17, 2009

Hebrews 12:1-3

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverence the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith, who for the joy before him set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Yesterday, this familiar passage took on a different meaning. Amy has crossed the finish line, into the arms of Jesus, and now joins the cloud of witnesses cheering her family on. Three cheers for Amy who ran the race :)

4:21 PM

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

What happens when you are called home?

I just saw the email saying Amy had been called home to be with the Lord.

I think some part of me still has not fully internalised it, some part that does not understand why God would call home one so young, a mother who has yet to watch her young children grow and mature and make sure they walk in all the paths of rightheousness. I'm angry. Angry that Isaac and Kate - Kate is still a toddler?! - have to grow up with only half of the twin guardians every child is given by God. I don't even think Kate will be able to remember the voice or the embrace of her mother when she grows up; and how will Isaac react to the news? He might realise the loss but not fully understand the significance of it. It only seemed like a short time ago when I was able to play with Kate at the back of the sanctuary. And now Joel has to carry an even heavier burden... I don't even want to imagine how he broke the news to the kids.

I wonder how Amy feels to leave so much behind. So much left uncompleted, roles not fulfilled, a good part of her life not yet experienced in every way she should be able to. I guess there must be a reason why God has called her home - death is but a threshold to cross, crossing into the promise of eternal life - but I wonder whether it hurts more to have to leave so much behind, or to be left behind.

8:04 PM

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

EXTREMELY HAPPY : DDD

Because I saw my pet wear a dress! *okay im going to die* But hannah and i have great taste in choosing uh.. pet clothes! YAYYYY hi five hannah! okay going to die going to die going to die...
AND CYCLING! I cycled with my pet from East Coast to Changi Beach and back - my legs were dying as we tried to rush back to make it in time to return the bikes. But I really really really enjoyed myself : D again again again!
And I watched ICE AGE 3 which was WAY BETTER than silly transformers! And I am SO NOT like Sid !!! Haha!!! I'm so going to be a superduper midwive you can hold my hand and I'll tell you jokes while you're in pain... And I'm very much impressed by Mother Tyrex... though my favourite part was Sid obsessing over his "children", trying to protect the eggs, attempting to make the baby tyrexes into vegetarians, bargaining with Mother Tyrex which days he should take their children. ANd his failure with the flightless bird makes me laugh now even as I think of it... OKAY IT WAS SO GOOD i absolutely adore it!
And I win at boggles : ppp

PEOPLE WHO OWE ME ICECREAM AND EEYORES OWN UP NOW~
Life after blocks is good! At least before Prelims arrive.

9:09 PM

Thursday, July 2, 2009

1 Peter 5:7

Over the course of this exam period I got three smses asking me to cast all my cares on God! So I went to try playing the song on my piano and I really love the tune. It's difficult to put in words, but some melodies, even without the lyrics, can evoke such a subtle feeling of simplicity and trust. Maybe its the fragmented melody, or the poignant minor 7th interval, I don't know.

I can play it very simply, like the voice of a child's innocent faith... I can play it strongly and deeply, as how I would imagine God's strong arms to be around us... I can play it in a question and answer way, mimicking how we always pray to God and how he never fails to answer us.... I could play it over and over and over again.... to remind myself of God's promises.

11:08 AM