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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

What happens when you are called home?

I just saw the email saying Amy had been called home to be with the Lord.

I think some part of me still has not fully internalised it, some part that does not understand why God would call home one so young, a mother who has yet to watch her young children grow and mature and make sure they walk in all the paths of rightheousness. I'm angry. Angry that Isaac and Kate - Kate is still a toddler?! - have to grow up with only half of the twin guardians every child is given by God. I don't even think Kate will be able to remember the voice or the embrace of her mother when she grows up; and how will Isaac react to the news? He might realise the loss but not fully understand the significance of it. It only seemed like a short time ago when I was able to play with Kate at the back of the sanctuary. And now Joel has to carry an even heavier burden... I don't even want to imagine how he broke the news to the kids.

I wonder how Amy feels to leave so much behind. So much left uncompleted, roles not fulfilled, a good part of her life not yet experienced in every way she should be able to. I guess there must be a reason why God has called her home - death is but a threshold to cross, crossing into the promise of eternal life - but I wonder whether it hurts more to have to leave so much behind, or to be left behind.

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