Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Psalms 145: 17-19"The Lord is righteous in all his ways and loving toward all he has made. The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth. He fulfills the desires of those who fear him; he hears their cry and saves them."
Haha God is amazing. Totally. I surrender.
I am so so so blessed!!! :)
11:52 PM
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Two kids flashed brilliant smiles at me today - the dimple-popping out, eyes shining like stars kind. The kind that shock you so that your answering smile is like, half a heartbeat too late because your mind is too busy chiselling that image onto your memory. I know I attract kids. Muhahaha!Hectic and confusing week. It's like, I haven't had the time to stop and take a breather. But there were still many many funny moments with my class <3 08A13!!!! Some things one just wont and cannot forget. Thank God for putting me in this silly insane class with girls I adore and guys I laugh hilariously at. (and with or laughed at!) I need to keep a notebook joting down all the retarded things we do everyday seriously. Chrysanthemum Tea. Africa. Chngs. BALLZ. Class benches. Godmother! Stacey/Sarah. How about yes/no? UP Russell! Sorting Hats. Marbles. 150-1. One-eyed girls. Boxman. Weak. Princess. Gee. Tigers and Sharks. Smiles smiles smiles abounding all around!!! We have to pull through this round, we have to.
Oh. And I'm jealous. Jealousballz. Sheesh. Don't really like the feeling but yet I can't help it. What a dilemma! I wonder if I make people jealous. And I guess a bit disappointed in people whom I thought would come to hug me but didn't and I don't have the willpower to reach out for one. Dammit, hugs work two ways you know. I guess I'll just wait and see if you come and hug me on your own. Then maybe we'll see whether hugs are really an embrace of love.
3 straight hours of reading today! Speedreading my lit texts is so not a good idea. Haha. I can't wait for the weekend!!!
10:29 PM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Today, I felt...many insane moments of love <3
numerous times when I just wanted to collapse in laughter!
a slight pang for one I have not seen in a long while...
a certain thankfulness to certain people :)
a (regrettable?) moment of scorn and pity for one I ignore -
overwhelming urges to hug my teacher and my friends,
a need to squeeze someone's cheeks,
partly cloudy, partly sunny.
Nice days.
6:09 PM
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Partly cloudy partly cloudy,Make me a cute little baby!
Alligators, sharks, porcupines, bighorn sheep and eels... Haha! This is the most adorable animation I have ever watched... In love in love with it... I wish everyone could watch it!!! I want to hug clouds. :))) If only fairy godmothers could make children like that...
9:15 PM
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Heehee. I haven't enjoyed myself in band practice for such a while now! : ))) Okay, I may appear stressed or at a loss sometimes but I think its only because I really want the best. So... *bites lip* haha. I really like the song 'Dwell in your house' It's like one of those songs that make you want to swing to it! AND WANXIANG PLAYS IT SO WELL I am her NUMBER ONE fan. Totally! She's super good at guitar - better than I am at piano - can I be jealous please? She makes me want to learn guitar.Yayyy. Looking forward to tomorrow!
11:26 PM
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Reminding myself I'm running for a crown that will last forever.I wonder how long I can last on this pace. Hmmm.
Yet it's probably still not fast enough.
Sigh. Sleep is elusive.
And dreams are rampant.
Oh and no more expectations Vera.
Is it the human's fault for being careless?
Or do we blame the vulnerability of the flowers one tramples?
I need a good fantasy book to lose myself in. I put my heart in a pretty, decorated jar.
Okay. I should stop hiding behind obscure and vague words. I think my level of happiness has been fluctuating like Marissa swiping my pigtails (oh bad example). So when disappointment hits, it doesn't just tap me, it kicks me and it hurts damn bad. And I don't have very valid or explicit reasons for my feelings (I may be deluding myself here) but I hate feeling this/that way. And tiredness too. I'm sorry to people like yt and brother that I dao because I don't feel like talking. Maybe it's a culmination of bad feelings or the knowledge that stress is on its swift and inevitable way. Which may prevent me from doing the right things sometimes but at the moment now I couldn't care less. Ho ho Vera. What a thing to say.
9:53 PM
Sunday, August 2, 2009
Makes one wonder why we learn it when humans repeat their mistakes over and over again. Forgetfulness is bliss. Willing oneself to forget will reduce the hurt. Outhurt the hurter. Ha. There's Beloved for me. What's fair isn't necessarily right. This ain't a battle, it's a rout, and we're all locked in a love that will soon wear everyone out. Are we still in an 'unmistakable love call' that shimmered around children until they learned better? Stomp it out I say. The past shouldn't take posession of the present, but it does invent desire.Haha. *build abs!*
8:53 PM
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Eeyore & Abs
I like EEYORE a lot :)And then Bernice tells me Tarzan goes "ORH-EEYORE EEYORE EEYORE EEYORE"
And so the both of us are going to laugh to get abs. ABS. SIX PACK. NINE PACKS. wheeee