La Musique

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Reminding myself I'm running for a crown that will last forever.
I wonder how long I can last on this pace. Hmmm.
Yet it's probably still not fast enough.
Sigh. Sleep is elusive.
And dreams are rampant.
Oh and no more expectations Vera.
Is it the human's fault for being careless?
Or do we blame the vulnerability of the flowers one tramples?
I need a good fantasy book to lose myself in. I put my heart in a pretty, decorated jar.

Okay. I should stop hiding behind obscure and vague words. I think my level of happiness has been fluctuating like Marissa swiping my pigtails (oh bad example). So when disappointment hits, it doesn't just tap me, it kicks me and it hurts damn bad. And I don't have very valid or explicit reasons for my feelings (I may be deluding myself here) but I hate feeling this/that way. And tiredness too. I'm sorry to people like yt and brother that I dao because I don't feel like talking. Maybe it's a culmination of bad feelings or the knowledge that stress is on its swift and inevitable way. Which may prevent me from doing the right things sometimes but at the moment now I couldn't care less. Ho ho Vera. What a thing to say.

9:53 PM